1. |
Home (Intro)
01:16
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2. |
As I Dream (ft. Lavon)
05:15
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"As I Dream"
When you eliminate frustration
You're captivated with greatness
Mixing hard work and hustle
Then you chase it with patience
Know your destiny is waiting
It worth the struggle to make it
If it don't make cents don't hate it
These riches can be created
Swear to skies above I'd never sell my soul
And If it came to that
I'd have to book a session
And leave my heart in the studio
Who really knows
What the end result will be
As I continue to beat these
Rappers like the police
I'm in a running my own conscience
Ear to conches
To hear the sea
Got the guidance
Of a goddess to deliver me
Battling demons that won't never leave
They try to defeat
They say to make it
Gotta fake it
Can't be me
Refuse to sell out for a single
Put that on the record
They swear my life is a movie
Won't make what was projected
Something about realness
Only a few recognize
Give me them coins
I need them millions to shine
Can't see a star will blind eyes
Only fail if you don't try
If they knock you down
Set your pace
Even if you're last
Finish the race
This is the perfect equation
Of adding your failures
To equal to greatness
I'm silencing every voice
Lent to you
Telling you
That in the end
You wouldn't make it
Before conception
Into adolescent
these things was manifested
To inspire belief of being less than
Torn from royalty now retaking my thrown
Give me all that I own
I swear these nights be so cold
I seen the bottom now I'm on the rise
Seen the dream I see with closed eyes
No appetite for what
they tryna feed me
Believe me
We gon make it out
Or we gon die trying
On these dreams, we relying
Odds defying
Remaining Defiant
Ugh
All I ever had
Was a pad and pen
It kept me out the padded room
Away from that penitentiary
Silly of me to see in me
What no one see
Possibly hypocrisy
All i had was my faith in me
No college degree
Assumptions of what i'd graduate to be
As they continue to sleep follow my dreams
Everything ain't as it seems
All that glitters don't gleam
a one soldier army
Tryna break the regime
This is a new era of terror
Refuse to be scared of
Any man-made emotion
Configured devoted to holding you
Comfortable with conforming
Jumping out of the normal
Middle finger to formal
We just creating turmoil
We still at the bottom
We got our eyes on the top
Only way they can hold me
Is if my heart stop
I do care if they never believe
Bet they gon see
What happens when you following your dreams
Young Dreamer
(Chorus)
And you'll see
All Of Me
Who I'm trying to be
Whats inside of me
As I Dream (x2)
Who I'm trying to be
Whats inside of me
As I Dream (x2)
Who I'm trying to be
Whats inside of me
As I Dream (x2)
Who I'm trying to be
Whats inside of me
As I Dream
You can't surpass what is classic
Put me in the mix
I already got it mastered
And I got em totaled like a bad car crash
I'm the power in the engine and I
Got em bagged like the air in the dash
I see my visions
In HD
I make them reality
Too in tune with the power that be
To not succeed
The stars aligned
And we shine
It's go time
Powers in the mind
guaranteed you'll see mine
(Chorus)
And you'll see
All Of Me
Who I'm trying to be
Whats inside of me
As I Dream (x2)
Who I'm trying to be
Whats inside of me
As I Dream (x2)
Who I'm trying to be
Whats inside of me
As I Dream (x2)
Who I'm trying to be
Whats inside of me
As I Dream
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3. |
Purple Hearts
03:21
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I wanna take some fireflies
Brighten up the darkness within me
I wonder if Delilah
Still, live in New York City
Do they
Still tease
For wearing
Plain white tees
To your knees
Like you was
Bout to crank S.B's
Would you love me
If my attitude
Wasn’t the same
If I ain’t in position
Where you thought
I had a name
Will things change
If I succumb
To the fame
Or will the high
of the moment
be to blame.
Did you
Go and
Try to get higher
The night
You got your wings
Did you
Ever express
What you battled within
I know this mind
Can be a war zone
Never wanted you
Permanently to be alone
I wish
I could make Demons
Evaporate gone
And I could give you more
Something more
Than a fuckin song
If I could
Take your
darkness
would tried my hardest
But something
Got a grip
It pulls your back
Like a harness.
Refuse to let
Them tarnish
Your perfect image
Cause we all got our downfalls
And if they speak in vain
You know I run my mouth off
Never really know
What going down internally
The more that you drift
I pray that you return to me
Was it me?
Was it something I did?
What did Mom and dad
Never give you as a kid
I swear I would give my all
Just to have it the old way
I'd give back this shine
If that meant
You’d be old B
But the love
Feel realer
crawling
Thru your veins
Cause
the love
I have
Can’t numb no pain
I used to look to you
When they throw the book at you
The glass between us
Attempted to change
My view of you.
How we get here?
Where the road fork at?
When did the needle
Become more important than me man?
Nights I couldnt sleep
When my phone ring
late night
I would fear
A bad dose
Took ya life
Now I know
You’re not under your control
I just rewind
And let the good times roll
At times I feel like
Like I never really knew you
How I ain’t see
All the pain
That you grew thru
I was busy
Tryna make my name
I was busy
Tryna chase some fame
Dedication of my teens
To the game
In and out the club
So they know who I am
Now I rebel
Against all
I thought I wanted
90 percent of my life
Nobody kept it 100
had to build my own way
Do my own thing
Now they wanna latch
Cause they see what the grind bring
Fuck some IG numbers
That equates to nothing
Ain’t no double taps
When you alone and haunted
Don’t no followers
Really follow you
To your destruction
they gon watch
The entertainment
And say nothing
All I wanted is
Becoming a reality
When I lost you
I lost all the doubt in me
You never
Let me
See myself
For nothing
Less than great
Change the name
From dream
To goals
Go ahead and chase
And know
This life issues
No receipts
You can’t return
Anything you see
But you gain
Everything
That you seek
You’re powerful
when You feel weak
Grind
Pray
Go
Work
Hard
Believe.
I possess all I need.
Grind
Pray
Work
Hard
Believe.
I possess all I need
When the skies part
And I’m called home
No longer in the physical
It’s just my soul
I’ll face the throne
With the true belief
that I lived as I was
Created to be
When the skies part
And I’m called home
No longer in the physical
It’s just my soul
I’ll face the throne
With the true belief
that I lived as I was
Created to be
I am (x3)
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4. |
Missed Calls
02:16
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Hearsay
It’s a lot of
Hearsay
Yeah, I hear what they say
But I don’t fear no mayne (man)
Been running so long
Feel like a presidential campaign
Refuse to hustle hard
And never see a damn thing
Had to hit the old link
Ain't nothing really chain (change)
Receded who was round me
My patience wearin thin
Monopolize my spot
I don’t feel like this a game
Started rockin 2 chains
Realized we are not the same
I am different
For you, what is in it?
What is your position?
I get a lot of feeling
But none of them authentic
My prophecy
Speaks to me
In different lingo
Make me push the limit
Like a bad innuendo
Started with a small buzz
Reaching my crescendo
Greeting new faces
Like what’s good?
yo, Who sent you?
If I don’t fuck with you
feel need to pretend to
Feel like I’m the illest
Point, blank, menstrual
People switch
They witnessing you
Build up a status
I am the missing link
With me
There’s no apparatus
They all wanna trip
When the price
no longer gratis
Hustled too hard
To ever fall below average
Strides made
Then then shots
Turn into daggers
Posting accomplishments
they got it confused
With bragging
I am not my demons
I refused to be damaged
Weathered a few storms
My feet are still planted
Rooted in my beliefs
That darkness is obsolete
Note to self
Continue to be
Despite what they see.
Lyrics and beats
on blast
Only capture half
The rest is really lived
Wouldn’t understand
If they asked
They don’t know the half
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5. |
Show Off
03:10
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I got my eye on the prize
Like a goldfish
At the carnival
Building some wavy shit
From the bottom
Like some barnacle
Making change
Off these words
What’s a headline
To an article
Young, intelligent
With money
I know that combo startle you
Like damn
This nigga
Bout to put the youth deep
How you stop communication
With language
You don’t speak
It a trigger to racist haters
That they ass can’t trigger me
And a black bitch doin numbers
Like some trigonometry
I’m the shit
You disagree trigga, please
You hear my movement
Like a frat boy
In some flip flops
In these streets
I had a convo with my soul
yeah I Went and made some peace
You work on self
And self-worth
Changes shit
Rooted deep
This is
When
def jam poetry
Meets
Art scene city streets
And a binary
Not compared
To what
They
Typically see
This is me.
Yeah
I did it
With some
Shit I never had
Used social me
To my add vee
to go and
secure all the bags
Every battle
Ain’t your fight
Soul eternal
Keep it right
Poppin
Shit
For a
Minute
Cause I
Told em
Get ya life
Hustle been mean
But the journey look nice
Made a few nice moves
And I did it wit a mic
Thought I had a pipe dream
Till I started getting nice
Now I’m nicer than
The spitters
And these niggas
Getting tight
(hook)
All I know is hustle
Hustle I gotta grind
Chasing every dream
Manifesting what is mine
Gotta go gotta get it (x6)
Picture this
You Pray and get
All you ever want
Even when working against sin
It's been a minute since
You got straight bars
Like a fence
Lined around your property
I'm properly going in
You do it like
Piss poverty
Im rich with the pen
Put my pen on the line
And been getting rich since
Richer spirits
Richer convo
They fall in line
Like dominios
Im about that action
Close the deal pronto
Chillin out in Toronto
My feet up
Eating some mango
Now they wanna beef
I do it
Big
Burger
Mondo
Minding business
In a condo
With some thoughts
Of Galiano
Gagging
How I’m bout to drop
On they ass Geronimo
Damn Pam
I done started some shit
I’m calling plays
When I touch down
You can call this
A blitz
and They been coming
For my spot
You can call that a miss
And you looking for a title
You can call me that bitch
GPS where I am is
Doing things I never did
In some place I can’t pronounce
But they bought me here for biz
That is what I call a win
Watch me
Do that shit
Again and again
I’m out here livin
Chasing dreams
With my best friends
(Hook)
All I know is hustle
Hustle I gotta grind
Chasing every dream
Manifesting what is mine
Gotta go gotta get it (x6)
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6. |
Good Enough (ft. Lavon)
04:07
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Stuck in my head
And I don’t wanna be there
Anymore
Look in the mirror
Issa Rae, I feel
So insecure
Is this what I really want?
Am I ready for the jump?
Everybody hustling,
Why do I think I’m the one?
Fighting thoughts
Like who told you
You deserve this shit
Money,power
We only
Want some turn up
It’s
For the culture
Let’s make it a little darker
Continue
Planting seeds
Promoting
early departure
Falling harder
Every time we stumble
Can’t understand
No new shit
Can’t decipher
The mumbled
Dialing numbers
Praying that someone answer
Cause the stress
Of this mess
Cause the psyche
To Dismantle
I go
On and on
Not sure
what I’m searching for
But when
I make the wrong decision
I’m sure I’ll regret it or
Blame self so much
I push my disdain for self higher
Too bad life don’t come
With demonstrations
Or a trial
So all my errors
They haunt me till I forgive myself
Trying to bury
All the bullshit
With some drugs
Or wealth
Note to self
Don’t nobody
Got it figured out
Half of the journeys
Making sense of
What this life about
this is my destiny
Word to Kelly and Yonce
I’m just tryna
Shed my shell (Michelle)
survivor of this hard game
They can label all they want
And leave the writings on the wall
my destiny will be fulfilled
Before I got and end it all.
(Chorus)
Will I find my love
Will I find myself
Time will only tell
Will I ever feel good enough?
(x2)
Texts back and forth
How many times we gonna
Go about it
I’m thru convincing you
I’m worth your time
I really doubt that
The seven minutes in heaven
Is worth the months of pain
Trying to convince myself
I’m worth some love again
After you shatter
All the confidence I’ve built
This situation is rocky
Tryna get over the hill.
Healthy love
Ain’t nothing
I’ve seen on the regular
So everyone’s an enemy
Perceived as a predator
I think I’m fearful
Of what we really could be
Never allowed
My walls to come down
And be seen for me
So I just blame my past
But it’s really my fault
Contemplating
If I’m deserving
Of loving at all
(Chorus)
Will I find my love
Will I find myself
Time will only tell
Will I ever feel good enough?
(x2)
They champion you
over everybody else
It’s been a minute
I’ve felt I only have self
So I resent all of you equal
Feel like we stranger people
Had to set my own tone
Of what to go succeed too
My small accomplishments
Ain’t never noticed
What do I have to do
To feel like
Happiness deserving
No matter how bright
I shine
It gets dimmed by your issues
And I think sometimes
My tough exterior
Gets misused
Like I don’t need love
I’m too strong for affection
like they don’t give a fuck
About anything that I mention
So the distance become greater
Taught myself not to hate it
And Maybe the bad taste
Will subside a little later.
(Chorus)
Will I find my love
Will I find myself
Time will only tell
Will I ever feel good enough?
(x2)
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Slow down and smell the roses.
Camera roll full poses
We never post
And we living for these moments
Creatin' A life worthy of a toast
So raise a glass
To the rough days
They made us who we are
We gon work till we make
Real lives
What we put
Our dream eyes upon
This for the ones who
held me down time
And time again
I Used my loses
As stepping stones
Just to go and win
I promise, I swear
I would do it all again
And every time
I'll apologize for my sins
But you gotta live
A little crooked
To get straight
When you ain’t
Born in ideal
Sit u ate
Shun, all of my bad habits
swear I’m tryna break em
I’ll do better once I make it
Never had a blueprint
So I’m fine
With being
My Einstein
Color out the lines
The picture
Still perfect, I
Refuse to let the masses
Ever go and define
My grind
One thing you never
Gettin back is time
So every moment
Even bad
Gotta be worth it
Validate every emotion
So even when it’s hurting
Use it as a inspo
To go
So hard ah
If you ain’t get it
Today
There’s always tomorrow
I forgive myself
For all the times I missed
Growing up
When you was off
On ya own raising ya kids
Cause I believed
This dreamed
Was gon be worth it
Even if it that mean
somebody gon hurting
I had to redefine
What existence mean
And learn to excel
Within my means
Never focus on the green
Keep inspired by the team
And on days
That I’m down
I know that God got me
(Chorus)
So when I’m falling
I may call on you
To pick me up
When I come crawling
Can I count on you
To Dust me off
My intentions are pure
Will you see my heart, please
Cause of you I am strong
Thank you for loving me
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